Sometimes life's really discouraging. No matter how hard you try, ppl's perceive you as the OLD-YOU. You done smth wrong, you regret, you're sad. However, you're given a chance. Though u are given a chance, its almost like none. Cause no matter what you do, its still stays the same. You're still in pain. No one sees it, no1 hears it, no1 feels it. You cant show it out, you cant shout it out, you cant do anything to express your unhappiness. Afraid that by doing so, you'll lose something more important than your life.

You know very well you will do anything to protect that most important thing in your life. To protect means to "not hurt" that important thing. To "not-hurt" that thing, you will listen, watch what you can do and cant do. Its certain that every1 loves free things. Trust is free.. But why do some ppl just dun wanna receive it when you're trying so hard to give it away?.. Sometimes it just hurts so much that you feel like giving up. Sometimes you just wanna let go of everything, you're tired and you wanna leave everything behind, taking a big step forward. But deep down you know what you want. You know you can never do it. Crying is stupid you tell people, but sometimes you just cant help it.

You doubt God existence.. You thought that you can get what you wan by trying your very best. But seems like things doesn't go the way you want them to be. Sometimes you even hope that something or some1 can help you. Be it God or whoever. No one's gonna help you, you have to rely on yourself... No 1 else but you...

R's under invasion
April 17 1.18PM
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